i felt the earth move when you said goodbye.

the record spins,

and so does my brain

“just let me hear your voice,

just let me listen.”

i’m falling slowly

and definitely apart.

all these hopes 

hanging on the line,

clothespinned 

and blowing in the wind.

no trains, 

no planes, 

no highway tracks

leading you to me,

just strangers passing through.

no you, 

i know you, 

i know fear,

loneliness and distance.

all these hopes

hanging on the line

keeping my heart weighed down.

hands.

i felt you underneath.
your cracks growing,
separating into wounds.
crimson flow,
no kiss could mend.
i felt it hard.
like bricks on bricks,
five hundred and one
sitting on my heart.

i felt the tear.
shadows slipping,
seeping through.
i felt it sweetly.
passing over bones,
bare, in solitude
seeking new salt.

i felt your storm.

my ship waits.


i felt your hand.
the inches between
like oceans.

breathless,

we found shore.

nights like this still exist

how long has it been?
since eyes sunk me down
and my heart beat faster
and not from fear
how many days?
since mornings were light
and not hidden under covers
a million and a half hours
since awkward sighs
and tongues tied
all the years in between
feel forgotten
on a night like this
and i can't tell the difference
between smoke
and our breathing

if you're in the dark, turn on the light

look out, i'm coming
like a train
holding on tight
hold tight, keep track
keep me on track
silver seeps, heavy
yesterday was drowning
i'm heading upwards
forwards, and lighter
four words:
i am everyday new
i am everyday new

love songs on repeat

just one second
i remember the sound of it
your voice, on repeat
always laced in piano and strings
singing those words
i swear, it was just for me
and every hour feels like this
waiting, scraping by
with memories of an old song
sung by someone i once knew

ship swallows sea

this feels so fragile
and i feel so small
like a swallow stuck
like a ship lost
i'm a ship lost at sea
the trees are falling
all around me
and all i can see
is you
you don't even know
you don't even know me

keep it in the ribcage

i wonder if he lies awake
aching heart and sighs
i'll never be good enough
he's up in the sky
and i'm buried under snow
so deep he won't come lookin'
too much time with a girl like me
he'll know there's nothing more to find
but i lie awake, never-ending nights
aching heart and the longest sighs
breaking apart sentences i never put together
he'll never get to break my heart
'cause i'll never let it touch my sleeve