i'll make it look like it never happened.

cold, you shiver
looks like rain
looks like stormy weather
ice, your stare
looks to kill
stare straight through
empty hands, lonely hands
no one understands
hollow, my heart
fall right in, then out
there's nothing there
there's nothing there anymore.

nevermind.

i'm daydreaming of a ghost
inside these hollow walls
pressing my fingers against the edges
trying to find how i got here
your silence has got me numb
we might as well be together
floating through walls
i've turned my eyes and ears off
my brain can only process your absence
but you were never mine to miss
you were never mine.

there's chaos behind those eyes.

i've got pride
layered lies
underneath my eyelids
you've got words
few and far between
short sentences
the end period
i've got this need
growing like a disease
i need it all
the memories
and fantasies
the shadow overhead
it's dark, real dark
and i see no cover in sight.

i'll never tell.

i have a faulty heart
beating in untimely beats
bleeding on my sleeve
and everyone stares.
my imperfection is
getting the best of me
and you, you are so innocent
three hundred something miles away
and you're perfect, in your solitude,
unaware.

i wish it wasn't so.

there was fire in your veins
in that summer of salt and rain
pictures of empty rooms
burned into your memories
turning pale under the streetlight
you swore upon your life
that it was all fiction and smoke
and nothing could feel this way
like drowning under icy waves
over and over again
now you're left with missing pieces
and every breath leaves you hollow
knowing that there is another day
of going backwards all alone.

this is only temporary.

i'm filled with paper waves
creating ripples in my veins
starving to the bone
i've got my suitcase clutched
in my shaky hands
walking away feeling empty
worried about my posture
faking smiles, not all the way
i want your arms on either side
my safety, my goodbye

i give up.

i want to dissolve
into the trees
fall asleep
inside its leaves
and just wait
for you.