ship swallows sea

this feels so fragile
and i feel so small
like a swallow stuck
like a ship lost
i'm a ship lost at sea
the trees are falling
all around me
and all i can see
is you
you don't even know
you don't even know me

keep it in the ribcage

i wonder if he lies awake
aching heart and sighs
i'll never be good enough
he's up in the sky
and i'm buried under snow
so deep he won't come lookin'
too much time with a girl like me
he'll know there's nothing more to find
but i lie awake, never-ending nights
aching heart and the longest sighs
breaking apart sentences i never put together
he'll never get to break my heart
'cause i'll never let it touch my sleeve

sometimes in the winter, my heart melts.

yesterday felt like eternity
the rain never came
to wash away my thoughts
of snow and the city lights
your eyes, all of those colors
and how it was never right
maybe your heart is cold
but my bones are ice
if you try and touch me
i might shatter into
tiny pieces at your feet
and maybe you'd scoop me up
without even a thought
and take me home.

i'll make it look like it never happened.

cold, you shiver
looks like rain
looks like stormy weather
ice, your stare
looks to kill
stare straight through
empty hands, lonely hands
no one understands
hollow, my heart
fall right in, then out
there's nothing there
there's nothing there anymore.

nevermind.

i'm daydreaming of a ghost
inside these hollow walls
pressing my fingers against the edges
trying to find how i got here
your silence has got me numb
we might as well be together
floating through walls
i've turned my eyes and ears off
my brain can only process your absence
but you were never mine to miss
you were never mine.

there's chaos behind those eyes.

i've got pride
layered lies
underneath my eyelids
you've got words
few and far between
short sentences
the end period
i've got this need
growing like a disease
i need it all
the memories
and fantasies
the shadow overhead
it's dark, real dark
and i see no cover in sight.

i'll never tell.

i have a faulty heart
beating in untimely beats
bleeding on my sleeve
and everyone stares.
my imperfection is
getting the best of me
and you, you are so innocent
three hundred something miles away
and you're perfect, in your solitude,
unaware.