vulnerable is a word that tastes bitter in my mouth.

i want everything
and nothing
i want your hands
but only for a few minutes
the ocean is screaming
and i want nothing more
all the waves
blue and deep
salt in my skin
i want that ache
but it could kill
your brutal stare
is leaving me underwater
shiver and drown
my eyes are fixated
on the crack in the sky
i'm losing color
i want it all
so i can disappear inside

trust no one.

smoke in my curls
slip off into the night
stockings on sticks,
colored green
aware of my heart beat
amber in the air,
soaking in my skin
alert, aware, awake
scared, that look in your eye
no one's secret is safe
standing barefoot
in the cold,
you could have stolen my soul

last lonely thought.

the scent of vanilla,
and red eye salt.
i'm fading fast.
i don't know
which shape to take,
but if you're scared,
i am too.

lady armor.

i'm taking cover
cover you
feeling it all
you're saturated
i'll take the blow
so you can breathe
and fall back down
so your legs stand straight
and your heart beats
steady and sure
you should know
i'm not so brave
but sword in hand
always for you

friends vs "friends"

you are not worth it
yet, i tear my hair, still
your glare haunts, it hurts
like broken glass in crooked teeth
i shutter, you shake your head
like i'm unworthy
a pill, jagged, can't go down
this is all that's left of us
two bitter bodies
i float and forgive
you boast, chew on regret
fair and gone, i wipe my hands
a hypocrite, i leave you just the same